Firstly, apologies I haven’t posted in a couple days I just haven’t had any inspiration and I started school again on Monday. So I’m sorry for that I will try a little harder to post more!
Anyway on to new beginnings, this week I decided I want to go to college and I want to make a YouTube account. Let’s start with college, I’ve been up and down about staying on for my last year of school or moving on and going to college. Tonight I thought about it and I’ve researched the course I want to do (Animal Care) and I really think I want to go ahead and do it. The first thing I have to do (and do soon!) is apply because at least if I apply and don’t get in this year then at least I can stay on and try again next year. I feel like I want to move on with my life and I’m not happy with school. I don’t particularly like one of my ‘friends’ as she is very judgemental and she seems to just use me and my other friends. So I feel like a new start would be good.
All I wanna do is meet new people, do new things and travel.
So onto the whole YouTube thing, the other day I decided that in about summer time I’d like to make videos and put them on my own YouTube account. When I was younger I use to make silly videos with one of my good friends and we shared a YouTube account. However due to recent events we grew distant (we still talk etc. just not as much) So I decided to make my own account so I could subscribe to all my own YouTubers etc. But I had always wanted my own account to make videos, so I recently built up the courage and made my own account. Before I make a video I want to get some equipment like a tripod, microphone etc. So hopefully I will finally open up to the camera and share it with the rest of the world.
The past 2 years of my life have not been 100% the best. In 2013, I was in a very low place and even had to go to a therapist to talk about my feelings, after a few months it helped however near the end of 2013 I came out of a unhappy relationship but I didn’t end on the best of terms. After the break up I became very isolated and didn’t talk much. I often hid behind my 3 close friends, I also became very depressed again and even attempted to self harm. This was when I was at an all time low, I had even considered on taking my own life at points but I found the light at the end of the tunnel. Around the middle of 2014, I didn’t care about how people thought of me so I began enjoying my life again and it was all down to YouTubers. When I was younger I watched a couple YouTubers but I was never fully into it, but when I was 15 I began watching YouTube more and more. It gave me the purpose I needed to live. More recently I have fallen in love with watching a guy called Joe Sugg, he puts up videos every Sunday and I look forward to Sunday nights. Sometimes YouTubers somehow understand me in ways some people will never understand.
This year I plan on living my life, I have many things planned out this year such as a week away to Benidorm with family and my parents are also taking me away with my family to New York for my birthday then we are flying down to Florida for 2 weeks. I also plan to do more writing because I enjoy writing about my life or writing complete nonsense and sharing it with people. I hope to also learn some photography skills as I would like to take some great picture in New York. I hope I get to fulfil everything this year.
Thank you again,
anonymousgirl signing off.