New Beginnings

Firstly, apologies I haven’t posted in a couple days I just haven’t had any inspiration and I started school again on Monday. So I’m sorry for that I will try a little harder to post more!

Anyway on to new beginnings, this week I decided I want to go to college and I want to make a YouTube account. Let’s start with college, I’ve been up and down about staying on for my last year of school or moving on and going to college. Tonight I thought about it and I’ve researched the course I want to do (Animal Care) and I really think I want to go ahead and do it. The first thing I have to do (and do soon!) is apply because at least if I apply and don’t get in this year then at least I can stay on and try again next year. I feel like I want to move on with my life and I’m not happy with school. I don’t particularly like one of my ‘friends’ as she is very judgemental and she seems to just use me and my other friends. So I feel like a new start would be good.

All I wanna do is meet new people, do new things and travel.

So onto the whole YouTube thing, the other day I decided that in about summer time I’d like to make videos and put them on my own YouTube account. When I was younger I use to make silly videos with one of my good friends and we shared a YouTube account. However due to recent events we grew distant (we still talk etc. just not as much)  So I decided to make my own account so I could subscribe to all my own YouTubers etc. But I had always wanted my own account to make videos, so I recently built up the courage and made my own account. Before I make a video I want to get some equipment like a tripod, microphone etc. So hopefully I will finally open up to the camera and share it with the rest of the world.

The past 2 years of my life have not been 100% the best. In 2013, I was in a very low place and even had to go to a therapist to talk about my feelings, after a few months it helped however near the end of 2013 I came out of a unhappy relationship but I didn’t end on the best of terms. After the break up I became very isolated and didn’t talk much. I often hid behind my 3 close friends, I also became very depressed again and even attempted to self harm. This was when I was at an all time low, I had even considered on taking my own life at points but I found the light at the end of the tunnel. Around the middle of 2014, I didn’t care about how people thought of me so I began enjoying my life again and it was all down to YouTubers. When I was younger I watched a couple YouTubers but I was never fully into it, but when I was 15 I began watching YouTube more and more. It gave me the purpose I needed to live. More recently I have fallen in love with watching a guy called Joe Sugg, he puts up videos every Sunday and I look forward to Sunday nights. Sometimes YouTubers somehow understand me in ways some people will never understand.

This year I plan on living my life, I have many things planned out this year such as a week away to Benidorm with family and my parents are also taking me away with my family to New York for my birthday then we are flying down to Florida for 2 weeks. I also plan to do more writing because I enjoy writing about my life or writing complete nonsense and sharing it with people. I hope to also learn some photography skills as I would like to take some great picture in New York. I hope I get to fulfil everything this year.

Thank you again,

anonymousgirl signing off.


It’s okay

I don’t think there’s going to be a day when I don’t think about food or my body, but I’m living with it, and I wish I could tell young girls to find their safe place and stay with it.” – Demi Lavato
My goal in life is to enjoy what I do, and never to look back and say I wish I would have done that, and to go to UCLA, and to become someone great in life!” – Mila Kunis
Gay teenagers are four times as likely to attempt suicide as straight ones. I wish they knew that there’s nothing wrong with them; that they are just a different shade of normal.” – Jodi Picoult
Hi guys!
I googled I wish quotes and these are only a handful of inspirational quotes. All three celebrities are different; Demi Lavato is (mostly) a singer, Mila Kunis is (mostly) a actress and Jodi Picoult is an author. These are 3 different career paths.
I believe that no one should be judged for the way they look or the way they talk but I mostly disagree people being judged for who they love. I am straight however I did have friends who are gay; infact my boss whom I have known for a number of years before I started working with him is gay and I don’t judge him at all. He is like an extended family!
One thing that has upset me lately is that one of my so called ‘friends’ calls my 2 other friends lesbian just because they haven’t had boyfriends recently. My one friend that I referred to in another post has started to become angered by this, I feel really bad for both her and my other friend but they don’t particularly stand up for themselves. I am in thee middle of it all and I don’t want to say anything as it may hurt someone’s feeling. I feel that no one should be judged on their sexuality.
Even though I’m straight and haven’t been through anything like this I’ve seen it first hand. Telling someone is just the first step. It’s okay to be who you are! If this post could just help one person out there, that would just mean the world to me!
Thanks, anonymousgirl signing off.

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Happy New Year!

First off, I hope you all had a lovely new year however you spent it. I spent my new year with family and friends, my dad decided to have a party at our house and there were around 21 people there and our kitchen and living room were packed! My brother (age 19) had let our little cousin(age 7) play on his xbox one in his room but my brother became bored and wanted his xbox and computer back so my cousin was left with nothing to do I gave me the excuse to retreat to my room. I don’t do to well with mass groups of people in such small places. I let my cousin play on my xbox until he got bored, he wanted to stay in my room and draw. This let me stay in my room and play the last of us and I got to spend more time with my cousin which I was fine with.

It soon became a few minutes before midnight and everyone crowded in our living room, then it was time 5…4…3…2…1… Happy New Year! Then there was a sea of people hugging and shaking hands. After everyone had gone back to drinking and chatting, I slipped away back to my room and continued to play the last of us and watch movies.

Time slipped away and it soon was 4am, everyone had left and best of all the extremely loud music had been turned off. Now don’t get me wrong I love parties and all but till 4am? not really. Today I woke up at 2pm and still considered going back to sleep!

Anyway, good luck to you all in 2015 I hope everything goes right for you. I’ve got a jam packed year this year and I’m sure I’ll blog all about it. So, happy new year everyone!

Thanks, anonymousgirl signing off.

Moving On And New Year Goals

Hello again,

Recently as you know from previous blog posts I have been thinking about moving onto bigger things such as moving from secondary school(high school) to college and I’ve been thinking about everything I’ll leave behind along the way. Not that long ago I began to open up about who I really am to my friends. I slowly revealed that I am obsessed with YouTube and only a few people knew this as I was scared people would find me weird but I began to care less and less about what people thought about me and I began to care about how I thought of myself.

For the last 4 years of my life I acted like someone I wasn’t and I hated the way I acted so I decided to change the way I saw myself and the way everyone else saw me. I changed the way I looked and I changed my clothes, then I began showing the real me.

So back to moving on and leaving things behind, I’ve thought about how I will have to leave my friends behind. I have 3 very close friends in school, they’re the people I hang around with and the people who know most things about me (I say most because I still keep a lot of things about myself a secret.) I don’t want to leave at least one of my friends behind because lately we’ve became really close with each other and I guess part of me is scared to move on.

This brings me onto my new year goals! I want to set myself goals instead of resolutions, so here goes:

  1. I want to open up to more people
  2. I want to meet new people
  3. And finally I want to continue to blog throughout the year

Thanks, anonymousgirl signing off.

New stuff!

Hi again!

I hope you all had an absolutely lovely Christmas. Over the Christmas season I’ve been thinking I wanna do more with this blog! I want to do reviews of books & movies and make it more than just about silly stories I tell you I want to do something with this blog and that starts now! I want everyone and anyone who reads this blog to know a little more about me and in return I want to know more about you.

The first book I’ll review is the one that gave me inspiration to do this blog and that’s Girl Online by Zoe Sugg(Zoella). I felt a connection with this book, no reason why but it was an emotional rollercoaster. The book consists of a girl, Penny, writing her own blog under the alias Girl Online. Penny suffers from panic attacks and when her parents whisk her on a plane to New York she thinks its her worst nightmare! New York soon turns into her fairytale when she meets the gorgeous Noah. She suddenly sees herself falling in love and captures it on Girl Online. This soon changes her life forever as Noah has a secret too!

I would definitely recommend anyone to read this as it is a very good read. I have watched Zoe’s YouTube videos previously and I enjoy her work so when I heard about the positive feedback about her book I had to pick up a copy for myself. There is also word of book 2, Zoe mentions this in a vlog.

If any of you have read the book please share how you found the book or anything you want me to do on this account.

Thanks, anonymousgirl signing off.

Dealing with your ex

Hi again,

So lately I’ve been under a lot of stress lately and I’ve started feeling pretty down. Just over a year ago I went through a pretty bad breakup, it was my first serious relationship and it lasted around 2 years. I became really depressed after the breakup and even thought about taking my own life. Recently I’ve seen that my ex has had 2 or 3 girlfriends since the breakup and I’ve had one kiss since. So I started beginning to have that depressed feeling again a couple of days ago.

I also recently just finished reading a book called ‘Girl Online’ by Zoe Sugg (Zoella) and it made me think about how nothing good has really happened to me since the breakup.

I guess relating back to my last post I thought maybe leaving school and going someplace new like college would help me meet some new people that don’t know my past and won’t judge me.

I guess I’d like to know any tips you guys have for “getting over” your ex. I mean I 100% don’t like him anymore cause it was an awful relationship and I wish I ended it earlier to save myself the pain. So comment below any tips to help me through.

Thanks, anonymousgirl7 signing off.